Deliberate Creation: choose the best-feeling thought

My journey of spiritual awakening of ten years has gone something like this: After a reading of Eckhart Tolle's Power of Now, I was compelled to find truth. I started by looking into thought, emotion, consciousness, awareness, attention, intention, experience, acceptance, gratitude, forgiveness, compassion, surrender--all the drama characters of the mind; and then recognized fear as the central culprit; and looked into the self-inquiry "who am I"; and am now exploring the nature of reality. My most Read more [...]

The rational approach to awakening

My approach to awakening has been through insight. I think there are other approaches which I'm not very familiar with (devotion, surrender, extreme suffering, selfless service, spontaneous, and so on). Insight comes from observation and investigation. I get a pointer from someone, I take it as a hypothesis and I look for the truth of it in my own life and experience. It's been important to develop self-honesty and humility. It has not served me to just mentally agree with a pointer. It's Read more [...]

Sam Harris – An atheist finds spirituality

Sam Harris is one of the icons of the atheist trend. I haven't read any of his books, but I generally favor rationality over blind faith. That part is good; but it has also seemed to me that the atheist trend, from what I know about it, seems like a religion in itself. It is a belief against something. In any case, I was surprised to find out that Sam Harris is into and has been for into traditional spirituality for many years. "Given this change in my perception of the world, I understand Read more [...]

Self-observation and Self-honesty

I imagine that of the seven billion people alive today, each is gripped by fear in his or her own individual way, and those who begin to awaken from the effects of fear, do so in uniquely individual paths. Each path I'm sure is unique, but it does seem to me that there are some realizations which are common. Probably. I'm not certain but it seems to me that these recognitions must happen to all: Self-observation Self-honesty A non-intellectual, non-thinking method of knowing Read more [...]

Being human – notes to self

Life is a journey from fear to love. From unconsciousness to consciousness. The meaning of life is the meaning you give it. You’re a triumvirate of you (soul), mind and body. The answers are within you. The greatest tools you have are feeling, experience and observation. Follow your highest feeling. It resonates with your soul’s agenda. You are a non-physical being having a physical experience. Experience is where consciousness meets the physical world. You exist. Since you Read more [...]

The delusion of fear in the mind

For two years or so now, the way I see it is that life is a journey from fear to love. In most of us there is a delusion of fear in the mind. There is a belief, a feeling, that there is something wrong with life. I don't know how or when we pick this up or why it's universal. There does seem to be support for this idea in spirituality, philosophy, and literature--but really, in my view, the best way to see it is to observe its effects in your life. Not much has changed externally in Read more [...]

Look, release, notice

Hi folks! I know I have not written for a while. Most of us for most of our lives look for answers externally. Some of us for some reason gain the insight that there is somehing off-center in the mind. We see that we are not having a good experience of life, and that whatever is wrong is wrong inside. And so we go off on a search--usually a religious or spiritual search to find the answer. This is what I started about seven or eight years ago. And then I started writing about it here. The Read more [...]

Conversations with God

Hi folks! Sorry about the long quiet period. I think in early February, Julia recommneded to me on email that I take a look at Conversations with God, by Neale Donald Walsch. I am not sure why I actually did take a look, because this is not the kind of thing that would usually appeal to me. I would have dismissed it, from my own prejudices about the word God in the title. But for some reason I did actually take a look and I'm very glad that I did. I prefer to listen to the audio version Read more [...]

Update

A few days ago a reader alerted me that something was wrong with this site. It was behaving erratically. After fooling with it a bit, I decided it was time for a change anyway. I've been writing here for about four years now. Recently much has changed. I feel settled, easy. I believe there is really only one problem--and that is the delusion of fear. That recognition feels very big to me--with it, all the frantic energy of the last six or seven years that I spent in seeking an answer left me Read more [...]