Tag Archives: Recovery

Awakening and Depression

What is depression? Blah-ness. Dryness, emptiness, futility, disengagement. Painful to lift a finger. The opposite of love. Here’s my description of what depression feels like. By depression, I mean the mild to moderate clinical illness which has both physical and psychological symptoms and affects mood, thoughts, emotions and level of energy. photo credit: h.koppdelaney Does Awakening overcome depression? I had episodes of anxiety for twenty years, worsening over time. With this Read more [...]

Depression and Allowing

(In a letter to a friend who asked about letting go and depression; personal references have been removed) Dear -, Depression is the opposite of love. Depression is rage turned inward. Depression is all our hard emotions we had in the past for which we were not fully present, turned inward. I understand how you feel. I understand the utter numbness. It’s hard to be comfortable in your own skin. Whatever you are doing, you want to be doing something else. If you are with people, you Read more [...]

Addiction

What was or is your antidote to the uneasiness of being? Alcohol? Nicotine? Opiads? Whatever it is you’ve probably discovered that addictions and depression go hand-in-hand, and if it isn’t full-fledged depression, it is the constant uneasiness of being. The solution of course is to awaken. Awaken from the illusion of the mind and the uneasiness goes away, and then there is no need for feel-good chemicals. Awakening just takes the soft, gentle observation of Awareness. A release technique Read more [...]

Recovery from Anxiety and Depression

In late 2006 I was suicidally depressed. I was at the deepest end of the dark abyss of depression and I had given up on any attempt to climb out, knowing from the hundreds of prior attempts that all I’ll manage to do is tear off my fingernails without ever making it to light. I have always felt, like most of us, that there had to be a separate peace, perhaps a different possibility, if only I knew how to get at it. I devoured any thing I could find on depression or self-help, but those only Read more [...]

Over on…

Over on Urban Monk, Albert writes about Acceptance. Albert's style is personal and warm. Acceptance is important; my turn-around started with the complete acceptance of depression and anxiety. At that time, the acceptance came not from wisdom, but from sheer exhaustion. I was tired of the struggle. The letting go of all judgment about depression, suddenly and unexpectedly brought about the change that had eluded me in my years of struggle. Over on In 2 Deep, Davidya, a few days ago, wrote about Read more [...]

Flow…In a Few Words

It's all about accessing our natural ability to be in flow. When we are in flow, living improves without effort on our part. Flow is happy, non-resitant living in the Now. It is so very natural that when we "arrive" it's hard to remember how or why we ever lived a life of struggle. Where is happiness to be found? We look for joy outside, in power, relationships, accumulation and many other things that make up living, when joy is already shining inside us. Consciousness, uncluttered with mind-stuff, Read more [...]

Flow…A Few More Words

Is flow the same as awakening? Yes. We can think of ourselves as varying degrees of consciousnesses and unconsciousness, dreaming and awakening, illusion and awareness, and resistance and flow. What are the obstacles to waking up to flow? The first obstacle is the deep identification to thought. We are so addicted to thinking that it is hard to see another possibility. Once we have this insight, another obstacle is that mind will look at awakening as it does everything else—something to Read more [...]