Two years ago I looked into the delusion of self. I wrote about it in the articles categorized as No Self.
It’s a simple and direct technique. With focus and intensity, you look for the you in your thoughts, and see that the you in thoughts does not refer to anything.
I went through it two years ago and in a few days recognized the absence of what I had presumed to be the center of experience. Experience does not happen to me; experience just happens.
But nothing really changed after the seeing. So I’ve come to the conclusion that this is a valid technique but doesn’t go anywhere.
Recently, a friend pointed out this site: http://liberationunleashed.com. They are all about just this one seeing–the seeing that the self that most of us think we are does not exist.
If you go through this looking, keep your expectations clear. This is not about liberation or enlightenment or any such thing. What you will see is the truth that the you you think you are in thoughts does not exist.
If you look inside for you, you will immediately find the sense of you. It’s just you, the personal you. This is the sense of you, the sense of I am, the sense of being, the sense of existence, what it feels like to you, the experience of you. This of course does exist. But the you in thoughts which you think is the center of your experience does not exist.
My experience had been that it was not huge seeing. Nothing much changed.
So do this if you want to, but have the clear expectation that what you’re doing is seeing through the delusion of self in thoughts.
You’ll see that the way it’s done is that you work one-on-one with someone who will guide you. If you’re not comfortable in that setting, I’ll be happy to work with you. Drop me a line: http://www.beyond-karma.com/about/.