Wisdom contains no knowledge.
Knowledge is bondage.
-The Shiv Sutras
A reflection of the watcher in the mind creates the sense of “I” and the person acquires an apparently independent existence. In reality there is no person, only the watcher identifying himself with the “I” and the “mine”. The teacher tells the watcher: you are not this, there is nothing of yours in this, except the little point of “I am”, which is the bridge between the watcher and his dream. “I am this, I am that” is dream, while pure “I am” has the stamp of reality on it.
“You” as you think you are, do not exist.
Realizing that “I” and “me” are only ideas is a critical revelation in awakening—perhaps the most critical.
What does it take to allow this realization?
- Intellectual agreement that the “I” is an idea is helpful, but not the same as the feeling-realization of Truth.
- What I suggest, and talk about here, are Awareness, Release and self-honesty. These can lead to stillness and silence, in which the realization that “I” is not real may be allowed.
- Awareness is connecting with inner silence. This is the effortless, object-less, choice-less awareness. It can be developed through meditation, inner-observing, and other techniques. When attention dwells effortlessly in this thoughtless awareness, it can be seen that the ‘I’ thought comes and goes.
- Release is learning (remembering) how to let go. Many of us come to awakening because our lives are not working and we have anxiety and fears–and so releasing can help us let go the pain-body immediately.
- Self-honesty (Willingness, readiness) is crucial. This is a deeper sort of willingness than what most of us experience as honesty in our conventional lives. All our thoughts and emotions and intentions must be aligned to allow this realization. There must be an utter openness, without any expectation at all.
- A radical inquiry to see that “I” do not exist. This is the method I am using, and I will write more about this as I gain experience with it:
1. Notice a thought passing. (or emotion, experience, intention and so on)
2. Try to find the self that’s thinking the thought. Notice there is none.
3. There is nobody thinking the thought. There is only thinking, which does not belong to anyone.