Category Archives: Sense of You

The mind live in a context of the effects of a fear–the fear of life. The fear can be seen through by looking at the sense of I AM.

Look, release, notice

Hi folks! I know I have not written for a while. Most of us for most of our lives look for answers externally. Some of us for some reason gain the insight that there is somehing off-center in the mind. We see that we are not having a good experience of life, and that whatever is wrong is wrong inside. And so we go off on a search--usually a religious or spiritual search to find the answer. This is what I started about seven or eight years ago. And then I started writing about it here. The Read more [...]

Fear of life and the Looking

The way it is happening for me is that two years ago I had the recognition on a morning walk that the only problem there is, is fear. With that recognition, much (not all) of the seeking energy dissipitated--I was no longer interested in finding the next secret to awakening. I understood the problem and I had confirmation about it from Jed Mckenna, Eckhart Tolle, Buddha, Anthony de Mello and others. I had a really, good year and I was beginning to re-engage in life after many years of escaping in Read more [...]

Why the recovery is hard

Why this is difficult I like happiness as much as the next guy. But it's not happiness that sends one in search of truth. It's rabid and feverish, clawing madness to stop being a lie, regardless of price, come heaven or hell. This isn't about higher consciousness or self-discovery or heaven on earth. This is about blood-caked swords and Buddha's rotting head and self-immolation, and anyone who says otherwise is selling something they don't have. -Jed Mckenna If you've been with me on this for a Read more [...]

Basics

A year ago I had a fundamental shift, a letting go. I'm not done. But I do feel significantly lighter, more natural, easier. It happened as I recognized that the basic problem with me, and all human beings, is fear. The Buddha said that people suffer. We suffer, not because there is suffering, but because of the damage caused by fear in the mind. Every human being, I think, at some point and at some level, knows that he or she is not seated in naturalness. It's interesting that most people Read more [...]

The Relief

What I feel these days is an enormous relief! I think back in May I had a shift. I didn't quite understand what had happened, and I still don't have clear words to describe it. I saw that life is perfect, it has always been perfect, mysterious, wondrous, quirky. The only problem with life is that I had thought there was a problem with life. And this bit of off-centeredness has been with me since I was a baby. With this recognition I understood. I understood why everything I have learned and Read more [...]

Happily at Square One

All the frantic energy of trying to figure it out, trying to understand and learn and practice--all of it left me in one fell swoop. I loved the whooshing sound it made on its way out, hehe! And here I am, empty and open, happily left with really only one insight, and it's not a big one. I am grateful to Eckhart Tolle. I read the Power of Now about four or five years ago, and it wasn't my first reading of it, but at the time of that particular reading I was in emotional pain and therefore open. Read more [...]

The sense of I AM

"So, you look. You bring your attention, for just a moment, to what it feels like to be you. Not to anything that you know to be the case, but to what it feels like to be you, just to touch it, just for a moment. And if you do that once, you'll do it again, and again, until it has its way with you, until you are finished with not noticing yourself, until you are finished with the hatred of your life, with the fear of your life, with the dissatisfaction of your life. Until dissatisfaction itself reveals Read more [...]

Core Practice – The sense of I AM

Wisdom contains no knowledge. -Zen Saying Knowledge is bondage. -The Shiv Sutras A reflection of the watcher in the mind creates the sense of "I" and the person acquires an apparently independent existence. In reality there is no person, only the watcher identifying himself with the "I" and the "mine". The teacher tells the watcher: you are not this, there is nothing of yours in this, except the little point of "I am", which is the bridge between the watcher and his dream. "I am this, I am Read more [...]

Ramana Maharshi

Ramana Maharshi Tim , a reader, recently donated and received some books, and I went over to his site, and found this little gem on Ramana Maharshi, and I had to lift it. Thanks, Tim! Ramana Maharshi was a great teacher. He promoted Inquiry—a passive looking at thoughts. For a time, because of problems in translation from Tamil to English, it was thought that Inquiry—Vichara—meant analytical investigation. It does not. It means a passive looking, not through the mind, but through awareness, Read more [...]