Divine Valentine
I had watched a thirteen year old little girl with yellow curls and a short blue ice skating dress, whirl around the ice for days, hours at a time, and one night she skated over to me and said Gruss Gott!
Another time, in German, want to see me do something?
I smiled. I was too [...]

Last week I wrote about the “Dark Night of the Soul”, a common experience of confusion and “spiritual depression” during the awakening process. Brenda suggested a much more appropriate title, and here it is!
The dark night is about transformation.
When we are seeking higher consciousness, we are seeking to end the tyranny of the ego so [...]

You see, when the mind is totally aware of its conditioning, there is only the mind; there is no ‘you’ separate from the mind. But, when the mind is only partially aware of its conditioning, it divides itself, it dislikes its conditioning or says it is a good thing; and, as long as there is [...]

(this is re-post to commemorate my mother’s 70th birthday)
On a hot African day in 1972, my mother and I were standing in line at the Post Office in Kampala, Uganda. She was dressed in a turquoise sari, her hair was braided and lustrous, and she was clutching a large cardboard box in her hands. I [...]

What I want is for you to be aware. To live consciously.
I don’t want it for you like the republicans want you to be republican. Or insert your –an,  -ist.
I don’t want it like an organization. Not like the law of attraction or some other belief system working on people’s desires and hopes.
So actually I [...]

Early 2007ish.

A relationship is over. Pain.

A job is over.

Deep in depression. Overweight. Drinking.

Giving up. Acceptance.

A small shift.

Observing the mind, observing thought. Effort.

Clever and useless revelations.

The year of High energy, high activity.

Traveling.

Awakening is now far more important than security, approval, or control.

A settling.

Can’t find job.

Anxiety.

Severe Anxiety.

Discovery of how to release.

Clinging to beliefs loosens.

Detachment-Apathy-Insomnia-Isolation. Is this depression [...]

At the beach in the summer, a glorious hot morning, the sunshine on my shoulders reminds me the universe is benign and warm. The soft crunch of hot sand oozing up through my toes reminds me of the connectedness of everything, bringing me right down to mother earth. Everyone at the beach is always happy, [...]

I think I saw this in a movie—A Jesuit priest in 1800’s goes to the Canadian wilderness to straighten out the brown people, the unfortunate heathens, and the Jesuit tells them of the hell-fire fury they’ll suffer if they don’t get on board, and this one aborigine, trying to follow the faith, asks if he’ll [...]

Optimism is so much easier than pessimism–it’s more fun, more effective, more validating, more energizing, and closer to Awareness. When we’re jazzed up, people love us and want to be around us. We do more, and we do more with more energy and more enthusiasm and more flow.
We want to be positive but many of [...]

You know the story of the boy who cried wolf—this kid is watching over the village sheep and he’s bored and does what I would have done as a boy, let’s just see what happens if I cry wolf, and the villagers come running out, once, twice, and the third time they don’t come and [...]