What I want is for you to be aware. To live consciously.
I don’t want it for you like the republicans want you to be republican. Or insert your –an, -ist.
I don’t want it like an organization. Not like the law of attraction or some other belief system working on people’s desires and hopes.
So actually I don’t want it for you. It’s more like here it is. Take it if you’re ready. Pay me, so I can continue to do more. If you want.
It’s just that it’s helped me. Transformed, really. I’m very different. Fuller, happier, lighter, freer. No end to it, it continues. It’s effortless, so why not?
You look around and you see strife. People are unhappy. Even happy people are unhappy. This is fragile they are thinking.
It’s strange because it’s so simple. War and starving children and injustice and abuse and cruelty. Meaninglessness. Purposelessness. Emptiness inside. It’s all because of fear and sadness in individuals.
Fear and sadness
You can’t settle. You can’t just be. You must be able to see that is weird. That you can’t just sit and be. Even a tree knows how to just be.
With some people I can feel their fear. Just standing in the same room. I can feel their inside world of fear and sadness, the shaking and tremor and the movement inside, all gecko-like.
F-thing. (Fear, in case you were thinking of the other thing because we like the other thing.)
It’s only because you created a concept of yourself. And then everything you do and say and think and feel is for that concept, not for you. So, a wall builds up, a wall of thought, emotions, stuck patterns. Closes you in. That’s fear.
It doesn’t have to be like that. That’s what I’m trying to say.
Not interested in religion, spirituality, complicated theories of existence. Not interested in heaven, hell, reincarnation, karma, brahma.
Not interested in memorizing other people’s words.
Not interested in self-improvement because that’s really just more effort, struggle, self-discipline.
Not interested in –ist, -ism, -an, neo- and the rest. Not interested in “positive thinking” or the law of attraction. Not interested in divisions of religion, countries, nationalism, class, money.
All that is just more beliefs. More angst.
It’s not about accumulating more mind-stuff. Truth is here when you’re willing to let go of the rubbish.
The shift from not-ready to ready—I don’t know how to show that. It just happens. Maybe from misery. Had enough of this. The seeing that it’s all about what’s inside not outside. Maybe a glimpse of clarity. For some, spirituality or intellect. A dream. An accidental relaxation of the ego. A seeing that a unified mind doesn’t argue with itself. Maybe from exhaustion, tired of the same old. Don’t know how this willingness happens.
–Opening up. Living consciously. Being gentle, unoccupied awareness. Living fully, openly, lovingly, freely. Being easy, as in let it come to me. And it does.
–Letting go. Of stuck patterns. Healing. Being rid of the F-thing. Letting go helps with the problems of life. Oddly, happily, problems help us awaken. So I talk about how get past these pesky problems. How to release anxiety, worry, fear, depression. How to get past addictions. How to maintain health and weight. How to find purpose. Get over emotional pain. Release stress. Get over that stupid person who just will not see the way you want.
Letting go helps us awaken. Awakening helps us let go. It’s a ying-yang thing. What’s not to like?
-showing you you can do this too. Showing you what is false in you. Showing it’s not about getting to enlightenment—it’s about starting the journey, getting into the flow of it. We do it together. How to be open, free, loving, easy. Opening up and Letting go.
Well, it’s here if you want it.
-other stuff I’m interested in. Making a living at this. Writing. A lot. Loving family & friends. Making more friends. Traveling. Being part of this thing that’s happening in the world. This awakening thing.