Well, I haven’t been swarmed by a bunch of gleeful, flower-bikini-clad spiritual babes. Maybe that will still happen.
And my mortgage lender refuses to believe I don’t exist. The bastard.
It’s a no-big-deal kind of a thing. That’s not bad. That’s truth.
It’s compelling and unrelenting. And it’s here in real life, not in the abstraction of meditation or concepts.
And what does it do for you?
Well, it’s truth. That’s big.
Is it enlightenment?
No, not really. Liberation?
Yes, of a sort. It’s liberation from the tyranny of the delusional self. That’s huge.
But not complete.
As Jed Mckenna says simply, Further. Go further. Don’t stop looking.
Keep testing it. Test it in real life.
When the no-you is seen, it is seen how we weave our delusions. It is seen how we get caught up in the feedback loops of emotions, and where fear comes from. It is seen how this delusion holds up the past and the future.
And this technique develops honesty. That sounds weird, but it’s true.
It’s a big step.
But when you see it, conceptually, don’t stop. When you recognize, don’t stop. Just don’t stop.
That’s a mistake. The only mistake you can make.
Test it in real life. Keep testing it.
You can see this delusion in everything. You see it when you drink coffee and you see it when you are fighting and you see it when you lose your job and you see it when a pretty woman smiles at you.
Keep looking. It’s an easy, effortless kind of looking. Don’t think hard about it. It’s just looking. You’ll see it everywhere. You don’t exist.
And take your time with it. Be patient. Ease off.
But you do actually have to do it. So, look.
I’m thinking about this website now. Where to go from here. Things have shaken up in me. A fresh authenticity. A lot of confusion. I’m letting it be.
I want to keep it direct and helpful, in REAL LIFE, not in spirituality or mysticism.
Maybe a format of a forum can work better. Easier for people to discuss stuff. And techniques like “you don’t exist” and releasing, work better in a back-and-forth kind of format. I’ll give that some thought.
Right now, here is what I know:
1. You don’t exist. Start with this: It’s not like you existed and someone came by and gave you a body to call yours, and a mind to call yours, and a life to call yours, and awareness to call yours. A mind-body-awareness-life were born. You came later. You came as an idea.
2. Release. This is an important skill to learn. The release technique interrupts the mechanism through which emotions build up into confusing cycles in the mind and body. And cleans out what is already built up. Allow the emotion. Make space for it. Make even more space. And ask yourself if you can let it go. Then try to let go, even if you don’t know what it means to let go. Wash, rinse, repeat.
3. Test it in real life. If this stuff doesn’t work in real life, what’s the point?
4. Further. Keep going. Keep exploring awakened writers. I prefer simple, direct and contemporary. Stay away from that which you can’t test for yourself. I like Mckenna, Adyashanti, Tolle, Jacobson, O’keffe, Tollifson, and some others, for their directness and simplicity.
5. Surrender. I still have to work this a bit. I’m not clear on this yet. It’s not giving up the responsibility of your own salvation–that’s not it. But there is something here and I want to explore it.
6. Spiritual organizations are useless. Organizations of any sort are useless. The whole business of spirituality is part of the world’s inflexible structures which keep you trapped. I know, it sounds radical. Take a look. See that the people who chase spirituality do so because they are attached to their suffering. I mean look we spend a considerable portion of our lives trying to turn a bad self-image into a good self-image. That’s what self-improvement and spirituality and religion are all about. A self-image which doesn’t exist tries to improve itself–the whole thing is madness.
7. Meditation can be helpful. It doesn’t help you awaken. But I’m not ready to dismiss it completely. I don’t meditate much any more. But it can helpful in the same way yoga is helpful.