Sorry about the long quiet period.
I think in early February, Julia recommneded to me on email that I take a look at Conversations with God, by Neale Donald Walsch.
I am not sure why I actually did take a look, because this is not the kind of thing that would usually appeal to me. I would have dismissed it, from my own prejudices about the word God in the title.
But for some reason I did actually take a look and I’m very glad that I did.
I prefer to listen to the audio version rather than read the text. I was able to get audio and a book which contained the entire trilogy from my library. The audio version is on youtube (search for it) and it looks like there are plenty of used books available from Amazon, etc.
Right now I find the first book most resonant; however, the other two are also good and I feel they will probably resonate just as well when I have absorbed the first.
I’ve been wanting to write about it–but every time I listen to it, I find something new. And so I want continue to absorb before I say much about it.
I started this spiritual exploration about seven years ago now, after reading Eckhart Tolle’s Power of Now, and exhausted from emotional distress. My approach has been to try to see the various spiritual ideas in my own experience, and this has served me well. But for quite some time, my exploration felt as if it was compelled and urgent and taumatic and confusing.
And now it is highly enjoyable and creative.
I think the turning ponit was the seeing two years ago that the basic problem is the problem of fear. The looking as suggested by John Sherman helped. And the Conversations with God wrapped it up nicely for me, confirming and enhancing my world view in a very practical way.
I doubt that I am done, and I am no longer trying to be. I am just very happy with who I am. The spiritual exploration now is joyous and creative!
There is a lot of material in Converstations with God, and I don’t think I can summarize it very well in a few sentences. Some of things I have really clicked with:
Trust your feelings. Your feelings are the language of the soul. Learn to discern feelings from emotion, which often thoughts. Follow your highest feeling.
Thought is productive and creative. Fear is a very attractive energy. Love is all there is.
That thought is productive and creative can easily be confirmed in actual experience. I don’t have the skills to use thought to create external experience. But I can use it to create my internal reality. Thought influences the context of mind and vice versa. One way to confirm this yourself is set up the parameters to see that your spiritual exploration is actually highly enjoyable and creative.
The CWG probably has the best discourse on relationships that I have seen. In thinking about relationships, we of course think about the very personal type of relationships, but everything is the relative world is a relationship. One thing only exists in relation to another.
The purpose of a relationship is the opportunity it provides to be who you are in relationship to the other person. It is not about our romantic ideas of sacrificing for, completing, loving, caring for, worrying about the other person (though all this may happen). It is about loving the opportunity to manifest yourself as the grandest version of you.
One common area of confusion is how to reconcile our esoteric spiritual exploration with the practical aspects of life. This is an area I have had trouble with, and my reaction to this generally had been to isolate myself in last few years. I have radically simplified life so that I had the mental space and the time to explore. The CWG has been very helpful to me in clearing this up.
The CWG confirms my view for me that the basic problem is fear. The reason we generally seem to be confused about how to live the extraordinary gift of life is that fear confuses us.
The common ideas about God–that God is to be feared, God judges, the ideas of eternal heaven and condmenation of hell and karma, that God punishes, that there is such thing as right or wrong–all come from fear.
Our confusion about existence comes from allowing ourselves to become what we are because of the experiences and words and beliefs of others.
Life is a constant, ever-expanding process of creation.
“Enlightenment is understanding that there is nowhere to go, nothing to do, and nobody you have to beexcept exactly who you are being right now.”
There is lot more and I do want to explore these ideas here. I will do so soon–when I think I have absorbed and had some experience with them.
For now I wanted to report that I am happy that this exploration for me is joyous and creative!